
I'm been thinking a lot lately about what it means to be a filmmaker. How you actually become a filmmaker. I make films. Does that make me a filmmaker? And if so, am I any good?
When I see films by certain directors, I am humbled. Spielberg, Scorsese, the Andersons (P.T. & Wes), the Coen brothers, Coppola and his talented daughter Sofia to name a few.
Most recently I have seen INGLOURIOUS BASTERDS, the new world war two picture by Mr. Quentin Tarantino. For a film that celebrates the joy of cinema so much I came out a bit depressed.
This of course has nothing to do with the caliber of the film. The photography by the great Robert Richardson is stunning. The editing, especially in the perfectly paced underground bar sequence, by Sally Menke ranks among the best in any of Tarantino's earlier films, if not better. And of course, the writing by Tarantino himself is top notch.
The reason I left BASTERDS deflated, even more so the next day when I realized just how great it really was, is because I don't think I have a movie that good in me. To most I may not seem like an over achiever, in fact, to some I may seem like an under achiever, yet, if I ever were to throw my hat in the ring as a filmmaker I would hope to be lumped in with the people like Welles and Kubrick (Why not aim for the heavens?) rather than Ratner and Bay.
This got me thinking about those 4 star filmmakers. About their youth and what they would think when they saw a film they admired. How did Scorsese feel about himself the first time he saw THE RED SHOES for example?
During one of my 10 hour youtube sleuth sessions I came across two videos, both featuring Tarantino, where he talks about seeing films by other directors and feeling that jealously that I feel right now. It's nice to know that no matter how great you are, and Tarantino sure is great, there are always people better... unless you're Kubrick. Then you're pretty much untouchable.....